You’ll n0tice that I included ALL the categories for this blog.
I’m sure I’m PMS-ing. According to the calendar I am, but whenever I get to this part of the month, I think it’s all “real” and I’m really feeling this way and it’s not hormones and I’ll never feel better again. Well, here I am again, and I’m trying to remember that the calendar says it’s hormones and that I will not feel like this forever.
And yet, here I am, feeling overwhelmed and like I should put my head in the oven. Although, I think I’d just get really hot like that and then I’d be bummed about being so hot.
I have too much going on, as always. I have my last final tonight to close out this quarter (yay!) and I hear it’s a real bugger and I haven’t studied at all. Don’t much care, as sad as that is. Then, I have three weeks off, but, not really. In those three weeks, I have to finish my first draft of my thesis and get a student teaching notebook put together (big project) for the next quarter which begins the very first part of January. Oh, and then there are the holidays and tutoring and taking care of family. Notice how that one is last. How sad is that?
Isaak had a rough week last week. So rough, in fact, that we instituted the “Behavior Ladder” again AND we put him on the GFCF diet (basically no grains or dairy). Dh is very skeptical, but he’s being very supportive. I’m just desperate. I hate to see him struggle, and I’m willing to try anythingto help him.
The Behavior Ladder is sorta sad but very effective. He lists all his favorite things (computer, Game Boy, etc.) and then prioritizes them into what he loves the most, and then I put them on a ladder and he has to earn them all back, one per week. He has certain goals he has to meet (like controlling his temper), and if he does well for one week, he steps up one on the ladder and gets that back. I don’t like to do it because it seems extreme (everything is taken away to begin with), but he actually seems to enjoy it! He doesn’t complain about not having anything. He sees the whole thing as a big reward system, even though I took all the things away to begin with.
What a good kid. And he’s really trying. It’s a lot to deal with in his little mind. I can’t imagine what it’s like to try to control a runaway brain.
Anyway, I’m just feeling a bit down and overwhelmed, but this, too, shall pass. In fact, in another couple months, I’ll be home free (literally).
